Sometimes despite of doing every possible deed for
the one with whom you suppose to live forever, you are unable to top his
priority list and make your space in his heart.
And all we are left is this with unexplainable
hollowness, and we keep on asking to ourselves, this same question every
time that, “Where did I lacked?” and when we are unable
to find the answer, we keep on falling in the well of depression. The
person who seemed to be with us forever, out of a sudden, changes, starts
ignoring us and says that he has just become busier, that’s all.
Is this explanation enough to put a full stop to our desperation? The answer would be certainly ‘NO’. Because he is not going through the situations through which we are going, unable to feel
And yes, you figured it out, I was also drowning in this ocean of desperations. And continuously kept on asking this question to myself at every moment of life that "Despite of always being with my best friend in every situation, why couldn’t I make my space in his so-called big heart? And of course, where did I lacked?”
We all need a best friend, a person who always keeps on motivating us, appreciate our flaws and never ask to change ourselves. Me and my best friend were having an inseparable bond, like it veritably existed from our past lives, with no apparent reason. We enjoyed a lot together, couldn’t live with each other and loved each other’s company. But things started to change, or I should say he started to change. In this whole long period of our friendship, I didn’t know when did I became so obsessed with this friendship.
Friendships are so important to us and we do
anything to keep them safe, couldn’t able to bear losing them.
Research has shown that we are more likely to live longer and healthier lives if
we have good friends and their motivation helps us in healing faster. This
is the reason why we starve for friendships and it seems to be impossible for
us to live alone, happily.
Getting back to my story, me and my best friend
were living on cloud nine, enjoying every moment of our lives, like the
world was going to end soon. And all of a sudden, out of nowhere, he started
spending more time with his other friends and this kinda little hurted me, I
felt getting shot, but I never complained because all I wanted was his
happiness, whether the reason of his happiness was me or someone else. But
somewhere, deep inside, I felt so unsolicited that I couldn’t be a part of his
happiness. And one day, he told me that I need to change, need to change my behaviour
and fix my attitude. Yeah, I sort of become a little aggressive, rude. But this
was all for on purposes, so that he could approach me and ask me for my this
strange behaviour and perhaps spend time with me, but he didn’t.
Whenever I felt lonely, sad and asked him to meet
me, all I got to hear from him was this irritating, hurting phrase of words
saying, “I’m busy!”. I guess, maybe he was practicing to become the next
President of India. However, this kept on going for months & months and
slowly turned into a year.
I was getting depressed by passing of each day and
had no one to talk, to share my feelings and thoughts because people have no
spare time to listen to someone’s cries.
My college grades, my interactions with people, my behaviour,
all were reflecting this. And on one day, all these things suddenly clicked my
brain, realizing me that I was suffering from a toxic friendship and I needed
to stop mythologizing myself badly.
And this one random day, I looked into mirror and
said, "You know what, I’m going to be your best friend." and the
other me from the mirror replied, “Really?” And I
promised the other me, that "I’ll never leave you no matter how busy I
will be."
And we both, me and me, started doing things
together, we started going on long walks, watching movies, hanging out
together, clicking selfies, and yes, we both were having fun at the best.
And the more and more, I spent time with myself, I
felt better and better. I could see myself engaging cheerfully in social
gatherings and helping people from overcoming such similar toxic, one-sided and
obsessive friendships. And now I have tons of friends. Now my love isn’t
desperate with one person, instead, now I’m sharing my love and happiness with
the whole world.
The bottom line is, the more you spend time with
yourself, the more you’ll be able to spread your love and become happier.
Though initially, it seemed to be very hard for you to forget a
person, especially the one with whom you are with years, but
slowly and steadily, once you focus on the world behind that person, he himself
will get blurred from your vision and all left in your vision is this
wonderful, amazing world having people with beautiful hearts.
That's a nice blog Ganesh. Most of the people can relate to this. No matter how much busy you are , if you want to keep that friendship you can always find time for your best friends. Keep up the good work��
ReplyDeleteIndeed brother! Thanks for the appreciation :) It means a lot !
DeleteIt is an excellent post. Yes, It's really a bad experience when your best friend starts ignoring you without any proper reason. Sudden change in their behavior hurts a lot. No one is busy in life; they just changed their priorities.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, again it's a nice blog. I hope you will continue these types of post in future also.
Thanks for the appreciation, it motivates me to continue such posts in future :)
DeleteCommendable, learnt so much from this :D
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, I'm glad to know that you learned a lot from this !
DeleteIts actually pretty Good,Ganesh :) Good job ��
ReplyDeleteThanks for the appreciation, Ms. Zoya !!
DeleteIt's worth reading this brother.
ReplyDeleteSizeable work!
Thanks brother :) It's good to know that you liked it !!
DeleteExcellent post !!! Certainly it will help people in identifying their course of action, to be taken in a similar situation. Hopefully, we will read many more such blogs in future.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all thanks for such appreciation !
DeleteAnd yes, you'll definitely read such posts in future :)
Appreciable work but I wonder whether it is fiction or a real life experience of yours
ReplyDeleteIt is absolutely depicting my real life experience :)
DeleteThis is one fine form of writing and emotions. And, how you blend them together is commendable.
ReplyDeleteAll the best for future. Eager to see more from you.
Thank you so much ma'am !
DeleteThanks for the motivation and yep more posts are on the way...
even if I haven't any word to appreciate ur deed, I'm telling u this is one of the best blog I have read so far.
ReplyDeleten now the thing that u want to convey "change in behavior".
So, bro look 'the behavior of people changes(most probably) when they meet to the new person'.
Now, how can u save yourself to be highly hearted is by controlling on ur expectations(always increasing as long as u spent ur time n give values to any one).
But it is also true that expectations is human behavior(that can't give up) so I'm also appreciate the step u r taken regarding this, Spending time with yourself because in doing so u never be heated.
After all I hope u always share such ideas to others...✍
Thank you very much for such a beautiful feedback. I'm literally mesmerized by your thinking and brother thanks for always motivating me, inspiring me, and making me realize my value , thanks a lot. :)
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